Saturday, May 21 2005

I slept well last night for the first time in a few weeks. I had forgotten what a wonderful feeling it is to wake up in the morning rested and refreshed. I don't remember last nights dreams. I hurt a lot this morning. More than usual. I'm just waiting for my pain meds to kick in. Darbacet is a strange thing. It works very well, kills pain like no other. As it was explained to me, "it kills the pain by scrambeling the signals in the brain." Cool, huh? Its odd though because I can feel it. It's a strange sensation, like being on a rollercoaster that almost makes you sick but jerks you back just in time.

Dad's teaching me how to care for my African Violets. I have two of them, a purple one and a white and purple one. I love them dearly. They are so beautiful!

I was planning on going to this festivalish thing today. Several of my friends are going to be there; some working and some just chilling. Lisa, my kid sister, is singing there. I really wanted to go, but I woke up this morning in very great apin, therefore I am staying home resting. But, yeah. I was really looking foward to seeing my friends. I don't see much of them any more. Not since I changed churches. See, they still go to North Asheville and (obviously) I do not. So unless other arrangments are made, I don't see them any more. I try to act like it doesn't bother me much. I've made new friends down at Grace. I don't really miss North Asheville. Well, yeah, but new friends don't replace old friends. They can't. Now, don't get me wrong... I love my new friends at Grace with all my heart and I would never give them up, but I still miss my North Asheville gang. Like I said, I try not to let it show that it bothers me. There's nothing I can do about it, so I may as well be happy. I am not switching youth groups again. No way! For me personally and for where I am spiritually, Grace is totally where I need to be. I am just sad when I have to miss things like today when I would get to see me clan. Oh well, no use in complaining. I am much to blessed for that.

It's a perfect May day. It's warm outside, the sun is shinning, a breeze is blowing through the Birch leaves, it's just wonderful! Dad's working in the garden planting all sorts of beautiful things. How I long to be out there helping him. "Not in your condition" says doctors and parents. Oh well... soon. The roses, hibiscus, rhoderdendron, Mexican Heather, Gerber dasies and so many others are in full bloom. I think I shall go take some photographs.