lonely...

I don't handle the lonliness very well. I miss him so much. It's hard now. He's five hours away and I get to see him maybe once a month. But... fact is, in a short year and a half, he'll be gone for 6 months at a time. No calling him up because I miss him, no taking a weekend off to drive to see him. None of it. I'm afraid. I don't want to lose him. But... I don't know if I can do this. No matter how hard I try...