when i need you most

my entire world is falling apart and i feel like i'm an imposition. i'm sorry that i'm another thing you have to deal with. i know you love me, but... **sigh** i'm just sorry. i'll try not to be so much trouble. if it annoys you to call me, then don't. if you'd rather be hanging out with your friends, then go. if you'd prefer to sleep, then sleep. if you would rather do anything than talk to me, then do so. i don't want to keep you from your life, darling.

i know your world is new and exciting and busy, and it's hard to make time for me, but please remember my love, you *are* my world. without you i'm lost and alone. please don't forget me. please don't get too busy to call me. please don't push me out of your life...

I love you... even when you're too busy for me

lonely...

I don't handle the lonliness very well. I miss him so much. It's hard now. He's five hours away and I get to see him maybe once a month. But... fact is, in a short year and a half, he'll be gone for 6 months at a time. No calling him up because I miss him, no taking a weekend off to drive to see him. None of it. I'm afraid. I don't want to lose him. But... I don't know if I can do this. No matter how hard I try...

returning

My baby is coming home this weekend. I'm very, very excited. It's been a month since I've seen him. I've missed him terribly. But... it's funny. Every time I get to see him, I always get this strange feeling... "I wonder if things will be the same? I wonder how much he's changed? I wonder if the changes are good? i wonder if we're still "the one" for each other." Scary thoughts. But... exciting. I love him so much

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I don't understand... but I'll try

I'm sorry that my hurting bothers you. I miss you... and it breaks my heart when you're gone. I'm sorry that I share that with you. I don't understand why you want me to keep feelings to myself... but I'll try. I'll try anything for youm love. I'll do my best.

I'll try to show nothing but happy faces. I'll try not to let you know how much it hurts me that you're gone. I'll try to pretend that everything is ok.

I'll try anything for you, love...